Monday, April 14, 2014

Dealing with Anxiety

So something that I don't normally address, is my personal struggle with anxiety. I hate admitting that there is something wrong with me on this sort of mental/emotional level. It's  defeating, & for me it's impossible to deal with. 

This issue, is still pretty fresh for me, it's only been 14 months since I've discovered that I struggled with this, & I only came to that conclusion because I had my first anxiety attack then. There isn't any reason for me to have such a problem. I just woke up one day. 

I woke up feeling nervous. I didn't really know why, so I just kept going, I got dressed & went to chapel (here at VFCC we have chapel daily at 10am). I had an 11:30 class, right after chapel, so I was on my way to it, when I saw one of my close friends. I looked at him & freaked out. I have no idea why. I was sitting in my class & all of a sudden I couldn't breathe, I could feel the tears getting ready to run down my face. I began to freak out because I was freaking out & I didn't know why. I somehow managed to walk downstairs to Michaela's class & she took me away to get coffee & calm down. The rest of the day I just sat in my room, afraid to do anything. I called my mom & she helped me come to terms with what I had gone through. A panic attack. 

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Hot Jamz & Cool Beats

This is Alexa Rose

Not only is Alexa absolutely beautiful, she is incredibly talented. Soft, yet strong, Alexa's voice is the perfect sound for the indie/folk scene. Her music & lyrics (which she writes herself) are pure, poetic, & peaceful. Using her Appalachian roots to inspire her music, Alexa was able to put out her first album April 2013. Though Alexa is now familiar with recording in a studio, she remains humble and will sometimes record while sitting in her kitchen floor. 

If you're a fan of talented musicians & are in need of something soft to sing you to sleep, I definitely suggest checking out her music. 


Tuesday, April 8, 2014


Guys, I don't know what this is. All of my (guy) friends have been insisting that I download it; because it's so much easier than texting & they send the best/funniest snaps. So, last night, I finally gave in. I said, "if you make it for me, I will keep it," & they took my phone & set it up.

But I don't know. Like, what am I doing - really. I'm so confused.

I mean, maybe when I get more than 3 snaps I'll enjoy it more, but for now I'm left uninterested & lame.